I’m a step closer to my ideal world. Tomorrow’s weekend… haha. Although I have a long day ahead, I’m feeling good. 5 more hrs to knocking off but I have driving theory (BBDC made it mandatory, so I have to go even when I’ve passed my basic & advance) later, from 6 to 9.30pm. A really long one...
Mental picture:
I’m standing at the end of a diving board at 15metres above a pool that spells WEEKEND… I'm leaping off saying, “weekend, here I come”
It’s the Fathers’ Day weekend… I'm not sure if I’m celebrating with Daddy. I’m disappointed in him as much as the rests are. He’s been spending little time with us and coming back drunk.
He’s doing well in his work but their marriage has been on the rocks. Nobody does the right thing to keep it working. Mummy thinks he might be having an affair but she’s doing so many things that is driving him away and seeks for another support. While Dad strongly feels that mum has little respect for him. Her disregard is the manifestation of her infidelity.
We’re all affected but couldn’t be bothered anymore. They are refusing help and thinking in circles. We’re starting to hate them slowly, beginning to blame them for our unhappiness and insecurities. They haven realized we’re affected just as they are and growing cold towards matters of the heart.
I hope hus and I will never be like that and add unnecessary stress on our children. Like us be more like Hus’ folks… they’ve loved beyond measures.
Let’s not talk abt the sad stuff… It’s Fathers’ Day, I wonder if Hus want that day special for himself next year. My study term is only starting in April 2008 so conceiving now and giving birth in March is terrific timing. I talked to Hus abt it, but he answered in a way that he dint think I was serious.
I dint push for an answer, fearful that he might feel not be keen and thinks that I’m dying for a baby. I just thought that the timing is right, if not, I think I wouldn’t wanna be giving birth during the study term. The delay might be much later. But if Hus dun want, then it’s ok I guess. We’re still young right?
Maybe he still has a lot of plans in mind undone…
We’re all affected but couldn’t be bothered anymore. They are refusing help and thinking in circles. We’re starting to hate them slowly, beginning to blame them for our unhappiness and insecurities. They haven realized we’re affected just as they are and growing cold towards matters of the heart.
I hope hus and I will never be like that and add unnecessary stress on our children. Like us be more like Hus’ folks… they’ve loved beyond measures.
Let’s not talk abt the sad stuff… It’s Fathers’ Day, I wonder if Hus want that day special for himself next year. My study term is only starting in April 2008 so conceiving now and giving birth in March is terrific timing. I talked to Hus abt it, but he answered in a way that he dint think I was serious.
I dint push for an answer, fearful that he might feel not be keen and thinks that I’m dying for a baby. I just thought that the timing is right, if not, I think I wouldn’t wanna be giving birth during the study term. The delay might be much later. But if Hus dun want, then it’s ok I guess. We’re still young right?Maybe he still has a lot of plans in mind undone…
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