Monday Blues on a different level

Today-leap year. Nothing special for me but a day where it started badly for me. I dun feel waking up to go to work. Then a series of bad customers and my assistant added to the already blue day.

Making it blue-black for me.

Video below is to show case the kids' new skill; I so miss being a Stay-home-mom.

the major updates

 my apologies,  I've disappeared for too long.  work,  family,  chores and everything kept me busy for the past few months

my apologies, 

Checking in...

Reached office at 8.50am... I kind of get some strange of accomplishment when i reach before 9am, but today being a sweaty hot day, 8.50am is a bad time... the airconditioning wasn't turn on. GOSH!!!

I'm wearing a new necklace from Yuli. Hopefully I will have a spirit of an owl, I think I am becoming a workaholic as much as an alcoholic. Whahaha. *peep at Hus*

Drey at work

Work has been going slow for me. I'm not meeting enough people, so they say it. I'm sitting at my desk working on another proposal for another client yet it's still not enough.

Sometimes i feel stressed which I'm not supposed, sometimes I feel that i'm not producing enough. and that's what my boss says too. He hasn't really say it but I can tell he wanna say it.

Then I made my nice colleague angry so I'm not pretty much unguided. Poor me.... Why I make people angry? He sits on my far left and he decided to avoid me by not coming into office.

It's 10.01am now and I'm all alone in the office. That's why I can do something so insane.

I do really feel like an alien trying to fit in. I like my new lappy. it makes me happy doing silly things.

Tata.

some updates

Today is Friday. I just walked my children to school alone, hus went on a company trip to Vietnam. The children are now walking at a reasonable speed, they are growing very fast.
They bade a quick goodbye and went into school without any fuss. I should be happy while I actually feel a little strange. My children stopped crying abt going to school.
My life is abt to take a huge turn, I'm on my way into a new career. A challenge I chose to take on because it fit my requirement of flexible time. As far as we will want a more comfortable life, I couldn't make myself trade any more time with my children. The last 2 months were about passing exams and I completed everything that were needed last Friday. I passed the legendary M9A, it's abt structured products in investment. Do u have any clues what am I about to go into?
It's insurance. I'm about to be a financial planner, adviser, agent. I'm excited 2 hours after I passed my exam last Friday and the excitement died, I felt an emptiness in me. I'm not sure if I am addicted to passing exams or I'm afraid of what is to come. I've been reporting to work to be trained and I get to see a lot of fellow agents. To be frank, I dun like all that I see and I'm fearful of becoming like those that I dun like. Those were the majority, will I stand out amongst the rests or will I become one of them?
It is a lucrative industry. Pple in it wants money and power. Most are in it bcos of the need for either of them or both. The heads tempt u into doing more and better and those who crave for money and power will do well and survive well. I'm not sure abt those who are in it bcos of the flexible timing and to take advantage of buying the prdts for her family. While I will be able to tell u in half a years' time. Stay tune.

Some photos for u... Not that they have much relation to the details above. It's just to let u
have some visual updates.

Anw, if need insurance of any kind, call my number or leave a message.

leaving my role

Hey hey... I'm a happy Drey tdy.

I'm leaving my role as a recruitment officer. Next week, I'll concentrate on passing my exams to be a financial adviser, aka insurance agent. I dunno how it will work. I'm going to give it a try, since my husband is supportive. I can venture into anything since we didn't have a double income the whole of last year and we managed.
Kudos to hus.
Working as a recruitment officer isn't tough, getting rejected, hung up on, etc isn't that tough. The hardest was working under 3 bosses. You have 3 sets of instruction, 3 preference, 3 persons to please... And it's not the holy trinity. So... I'm calling quits after all the overworking made me fail 1 exam along the way. Argh!
I feel good abt this especially when my new house is almost ready so I have to start on some packing. Stay tune...

new life struggles

I woke up feeling upset today. I dreamt that I returned to work, I dunno in what firm and what job. In the dream, i'm happy to be employed.
I woke up to reality, i'm woke up to a million tasks. Repetitions of chores. I was disappointed that I dint wake up any earlier to make jan breakfast. I got a little frustrated when Thad pee-ed in his pants when I just asked if he needs to pee, he said no. I dun feel happy abt having to repeatedly pack Thad's toys everyday even though I was the one that made him play with them.
But I also see the benefits staying home with them. I'm in a super dilemma.

trading off a life-style to change lives

I tendered my resignation on the 1st day I return to work, 11th oct 2010. I'm serving my month's notice and leaving the place i've worked 5 yrs for.
A good 5 yrs I would say. I married my boyfriend, got my driver's licence, studied my specialist dip, pregnant twice and have 2 babies.
I'm in my last week of work, I'm starting to miss this place. The familiar chocolate-ty smell every morning, the quiet office and the big lab to start off a day. Blessed am I to have a large space to myself; not confined to an office or a cubicle. It's a place I find solace, a place I wanna be in when I needed "timeout".
I'm so gonna miss lunch breaks and colleagues. I'm also gonna miss being financially independent.
I'm going into a tough, thank-less but sacred job. I'm gonna to bring up 2 fine people for God and my husband.

disappointed

I woke up disappointed today, i dint sleep well. So did my mum. We were waiting for Jarek to get home. We woke up at 1 am and kept tossing until he's back at 4am. I dunno what reason will he give this time. It's usually staying up at friend's to "study" or friend's birthday party and of course this time he can't use "my teacher kept me back in school".

i wish i can talk to him, tell him every word that's going thru my mind but i'm afraid that i might put him down too much.

Work yesterday also dint go well. Nothing very bad happened, it's just an email (from boss' boss) that denied my boss from getting another staff to ease my dept of the extra work this year. Boss' boss thinks that we're not managing our time well.

"anything is the name of keeping expenses low" went thru my mind. My feet are swollen and tired at the end of every work day. Coming to work early and ending late seems not a sign clear enough. The push factors are getting stronger and stronger by day when my pregnancy gets heavier and heavier. The pull factors are also working hand-in-hand with the push.

Sometimes i feel that i can't discipline Thad quite as well as i want to. I'm being trapped by working mum's guilt & lack in understanding of my child. Sometimes it's because Thad is very clingy to me as though i'll disappear whenever i walk out of his sight.

Many appologies...

I'm sorry abt my disappearance... Lots was done during the whole month i was away!!! A WHOLE MONTH. I'm such a letdown. *weet, i was joking* Yet a professional blogger. duh!!! Make me a professional blogger or a home-maker... Life's gonna be GOOD!!!
Let me try to recall what i've been thru... hmm,

I was at Serko's many weeks ago and met up with his 2 girls while Ray and Dad Serko worked on inventory of Scuba Directory...

Nice Girls, very expressive and speak very well. I Like them!

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I couldn't very much remember what happened the whole of last month. Well, part of it, i was revising for a re-test(AIA), which i flunked again *misery*... Duh!!! Not gifted i guess. I spent a whole afternoon outside studying, first at Suntec Mac then Millenia Walk's Bakerzin...









Bored in the beautiful toilet Peektures!!!

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I also went to Bintan with Hus, he's there for work while i was there to disturb. Although it has beautiful beach and a welcoming sun... I stayed in the room and caught up with sleep.

Show you my dinner without Hus... So poor thing right? Like i say, he's there for work. It's been so long since i las had cup noodles... Frankly, It's yummylicious!!!

Show you my resort!!!

Shall continue in the next account. This account is too jammed with pix!!!

I flunked my test

The missing many days were for the tormenting insurance module 5 paper… having worked so hard… I still flunked. The good thing is, after the paper, I get to see Hus after a whole week.

The bad thing is I’ll have to go thru it again… Sigh… study again, for the same thing. The paper wasn’t easy for me. The last few years of my life were about scientific terms and report writing in direct speech with the least amount of words, aided with clear and concise tables.

The finance lingo was too alien and too similar at every juncture while they really mean a difference thing. I do not know how to make this any clearer as I’m in a muddle too. Haha.

Well, anyways, it’s studying again until the re-test on the 24th, next wed. Levi booked it already.

Ways to keep it healthy...

Went to 2 interviews yesterday… One with GSK and another with AIA… The major 2 growing and moving industries in SG, pharma and finance… being practical like anything, that’s me, Audrey.

Well, I’ve been contemplating to move on because I’m rather bored with my current job… Although I’ve been given the chance to further studies, I dint feel that it’s a good deal totally… School term will only start in April, then it’s taking 1 year, then by then I will have worked in CE (Cadbury Enterprises) for 4 yrs… Out of good will, I’ll have to stay for anther year or more, CE is taking 5-6yrs of my life away with little job progression opportunity… Does it sound like a good deal to stay to further studies when you equate time to money?

I have a secret hope that I could get into GSK as the company is gigantic and the career progression will be likely more attractive… If I will to get into GSK, I’ll definitely be furthering my studies elsewhere so that I might be more adequate for the job… But if I dint, I hope to make lots of money with AIA then further my studies too… For whatever reasons… Maybe I would love to work in a Pharma in time to come… Food industry is a never-dying industry, but pharma will only be an ever-growing one as “food is culprit why more and more are falling ill”… *sly smile*

What I dun like abt GSK? It’s probably the regular hours… Duh!!! Many might exclaimed, why anyone would grumble against regular working hours. I wished to have more time with Hus, he’s working at retail hours and he probably dun wanna leave his job. Because we are working at such different hours, we’re sleep-philic (drey’s word, lack sleep hence love it), I sleep late at night to spend more time with Hus. He gets up early to do the same… gosh!!!

While AIA promised that I might not need to report to office at fixed timings, I might be able to spend more time with Hus… worked during the time he’s working. Maybe it looks like I’m dependent, maybe sticky… But I think this might be essential to keep our marriage healthy… I dun think we have enough time to communicate, we usually sit together and speak little. Even when we speak, the other might be too tired to digest the msg…

Mundane

The monotony of my job feels unbearable recently. I dunno why did I feel so unhappy abt working here recently. There’s a construction of a new lab going on, so I shouldn’t be looking at boss while working once the construction is done. But I still feel sucky abt work everyday…

this is the beans lab and computer work desk

this is chemistry lab

the microbiology lab

the sink area that oversee Boss' office

The pix is taken behind the glass panel... Boss' office

I’ve been trying to get another job so that I might be able to find zest in work again… Good gracious, I’m one easily bored lady. I thought that I’m remarkable already having stayed in Cadbury Enterprises for the past 2.5 yrs. It’s not a bad company, I’m just feeling too young for the semi-retired pace here. The pple in the company stayed for donkey years, the least is Arbaeyah, and she’s in her 11th year… My 2.5 pales in comparison.

Maybe it’s my recent job applications that are causing this… There’s a false hope of leaving the company to a more challenging work and better paying job. Sigh… Let God decide, if I stay I’ll further my studies, if I dun… I’ll get better job and pay.

Argh!!! I’m bored