We’re in our week 20; having passed the halfway mark is… WONDERFUL!!! For some who dun understand why… Well, sometimes you panic when you’re not eating well in the 1st trimester. I resented being pregnant then, it really felt like nothing you’ve ever felt. And sometimes you feel alone, cos nobody really understands the discomforts and can never ease all that.
Vomiting, gum pain, fatigue… insomnia, loss of appetite and more than ever wanted to eat well and healthy… All these repeatedly go thru everyday of the 1st trimester. Everyone around you who knows abt your pregnancy gets excited for you, advise you 2 million dos & don’ts… your spirits are not lifted by them except feeling sorry for yourself and baby… you dun want a under-nutritioned kid yet it’s just beyond you.
Well, it’s over. I think all those stopped by week 15-16. Then you get a little jittery abt baby’s growth cos you dun feel the little fella… you’re not vomiting. You ain’t sure he’s doing well. Then comes to week 19 and 20, I wasn’t sure if the baby move, it felt like you’ve fart ready to be release but nothing comes out… then u wonder if he’s moving… then this week, I can confirm he is. this is the side profile of the ultrasound scan 3 weeks ago...
The moment is not like instantaneous, not those that you might think is a magical moment. It’s actually a process of discovering, is it? Is it? I think it is… yes, it is…I dint get tears in my eyes and nothing emotional… just relieved! Baby, you’re ok? *signaled ok with thumb & pointer*
Well, now I’m counting down every week. I cut my hair short, easier to manage and cut off the coloured ends… so I’m now with black and short hair… Feel pretty good abt this.something interesting i did, i made a count-down chart to count down the no. of schooling weeks and a record of baby's growth..
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